alright so. today was the big day. :( omgsh it was so sad. for everyone that doesnt know...my brother brandon is in the navy and he left today for illinois for bootcamp and training and wont be back for a long time. so my mom woke me up around 1 so i can spend his last hour with him. the whole time he was just getting ready and stuff so i didnt have much time with him. then right before we leave haha i take duke outside and he falls down the steps outside (theres like 2) and i look back and hes just laying there. and he gets up and falls and does that like 3 times. i thought he was just playing with me so i pick him up and put him in the grass and hes whining his face off and he falls over. so im like crap!! and he cant walk. so i tell my mom and shes like let me see him walk and i put him down and he like cant step on his left foot. and hes whining and everything and im like mom i cant watch him whine!! so shes like alright well just leave him in your room we really have to go. so we leave. the whole way there my mom and brandon are all happy and laughing and stuff and im like in the back looking out the window crying most of the way there. my mom was so strong about this. idk how she did it, lately knowing that he was about to leave she never even once seemed sad. and on the way there my moms just like stay positive, always wear warm clothes, dont forget to write us once a week, take care of yourself, and stuff. :/ so we get pretty close to where he has to go so hes like yeah just park here and we all get out and hes like ill call yall monday night when i get in great lakes (place in illinois) do all the hugs, i love you's and stuff. we get in the car and me and my mom just break down and watch him walk away. it was the worst feeling ever.



later on, i get a new phone. its freaking sweet. ask me for the # if u want it. and we go to my moms work and go to the lake there. get some golf balls for duke. go home. dukes like fine. hes so stupid.


uhh it sucks so bad cause like i cant just think i can go out in the living room and play with duke and watch brandon play with him anymore. or expect brandon to be out there with my mom. any of that. his room isnt going to change though. it prolly wont be the same to walk by that door anymore. ahh sorry for all my gloomy-ness.

on happier news: i think i know what im going to be when i get older. a physicans assistant. no blood. sounds good. 6 years of school though. boo.

im gonna go watch tv with my mom and eat some fetucinni alfredo. :)